Day 30, January 24

Always be mindful of the kindness, not the fault of others.

Today was Ed's first full day post surgery. There were a lot of good things that happened today. He got up and in the wheelchair with the help of physical therapy. We began discussions on next steps and figuring out needs and accommodations for getting Ed home. I felt more in control of my emotions and more mindful of the people I was around. I have so much going on with Ed and communicating with people, I'm not "in the moment" as much as I would like. However, I was very mindful today of the positives and most especially the kindness surrounding us. We've had an enormous amount of support as we begin this journey through a difficult time. Also, I tried myself to be kinder to the hospital staff today. There are many frustrations when a loved one is in the hospital. Yesterday I felt I was taking my frustrations out on the people trying to help us. While the care isn't always optimal, I need to remember the hospital staff are working in an understaffed environment and are always doing their best. The kinder I am to them. The kinder they are to me. It's really that simple. If I want Ed to stay relaxed, I need to stay relaxed and calm. It's the only control I have over someone elses state of mind. Bottom line, today I practiced being mindful of kindness.