Day 5

Surrender to what is. Let go of what was. Have faith in what will be. --Sonia Ricotti

My opportunity for mindfulness came today with Ed (my husband) when we were on the way home from his doctor appointment. Just a brief history for anyone not familiar with us. Ed had an above knee amputation a little over four years ago. Since then, while he's had trouble now and then, he's learned to do quite well with a prosthesis. On December 3 of this year, he had severe pain in his left leg which led to a 2 1/2 week stay in the hospital and inpatient rehab. I won't go into all of the details, but during that time he had two major surgeries (one of which was 7 1/2 hours long in the middle of the night). At one point, we were both very scared he would lose his leg. During the past  several years, I have spent many hours worrying about Ed and what will happen if he loses his other leg. Today, the doctor gave him a good report. (Yay!)  Pulses in the leg are good, wounds are healing, foot is warm, and he has good circulation. He still has a long recovery ahead of him. Probably months. Despite this, on the drive home I concentrated on the good news. No "what ifs". They serve no purpose. I've learned that when bad things happen, you just do what you have to do to survive and move forward. So for now - let go, enjoy and "have faith in what will be."